I'm Back and Maybe New & Improved(???)

It has been a loooong time since I've logged on and posted something. But I just hadn't been motivated and it seems like life just got in the way (although I'm not quite sure what got in the way of what but you get the point). Over the last two months I have just kind of given up and not really cared and unfortunately my lack of ambition resulted in a 7 pound weight gain (but more on that later). Then this last week I had an epiphany. I was starting to feel really tired, and depressed, and just over all unhappy with my life and I realized that I just felt UNHEALTHY! So I made myself the commitment to get back to the gym.

GOALS
When I was really starting to think about what goals I want to accomplish this time around (isn't it like 300x the charm or something??) I realized that losing a certain number of pounds just doesn't work for me. I have A LOT of weight to lose (but once again more on that later) and when I see the number on the scale go up (or not change at all) I get really down on myself and that's when I give up. Now that's not to say that I won't weigh myself anymore -- because how else would I track progress??? BUT my ultimate goal is to walk for a half an hour a day for 3 weeks. Once I reach the 3 week mark I'll look at where I'm at and maybe change my goal. 

I really need to start eating healthier too (that's a big part of the 7 pound gain too) but I can't just do an overhaul of my diet and expect it to stick -- I know me IT WON'T STICK! Soooo....I've decided for a 3 week period that I'll change one thing about my diet. My goal for the first 3 weeks is too drink more water. I think you're supposed to drink half of your body weight in water a day (don't quote me on that I haven't looked it up since reading it the first time) -- so for me that would be 143 oz. so I guess I better start drinking up :)

TODAY
I can honestly say that I did not reach the water goal. So we won't even talk about that.

I did make it to the gym though!! I walked for my alotted half an hour and walked a total of 1 1/2 miles! I'm really proud of myself because it has been a while since I've gone so to walk that far on the track is a big accomplishment I think (although I'm pretty sure my feet hate me). So for today I get a gold star (YAY me!)

WEIGH IN

OK so this is a really brave moment for me because I never tell anyone what I weigh but today my weight was: 286.5

TUNES!

I like knowing what other people like to listen to at the gym (I'm nosy I can't help it) so I figure I would share my playlist for the day with you!

1. L.O.V.E. by Ashlee Simpson Gotta dig the old Ashlee Simpson lipsynching days.
2. Airplanes (Part II) by B.O.B.**SINGING** Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars...
3. Single Ladies by Beyonce
   You know you love it.
4. Undo It by Carrie Underwood
   Total chick kick butt song
5. I Drove All Night by Celine Dion
6. Ain't No Other Man by Christina Aguilera
   Xtina is AMAZING to work out too
7. Clumsy by Fergie
8. Amazing Grace by Josh Wilson
   Only instrumental but great to cool down too.