Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Day 3 and learning to modify :)

So I will totally admit that I have not followed the diet plan verbatim but I have lost 3 pound in 3 days (YAY!)

I'm learning that I can still munch on some of the food that I like but that I have to accomodate for that in something else. For example yesterday for lunch at work the kiddos had mini hamburger pizzas (homemade and MUCH healthier then the frozen ones obviously) they smelled delicious and made my sad little salad look even sadder by comparison so I allowed myself to have one (even though our chef always makes the teachers 2 or 3) and then munched on the salad and cucumbers that I had brought. Knowing that I had a treat helped me stay focused for the rest of the day (even though we did go out for dinner that night).

I've also stuck to strictly water for a drink (why waste those precious calories right!?) At first I was a little worried that I would be craving soda but I've found that I don't really miss it. Granted I tend to stay away from caffeinated sodas anyway and stick to the clear caffeine free sodas (Sprite, Sierra Mist, etc) but I do sometimes just CRAVE Sprite and then once I have one I just keep wanting another one. I know that you should allow yourself those things you crave in moderation but I really think for right now I'm just going to avoid it all together until I know I can cope with it.

Needless to say my weigh in today was 284 (down 3 pounds!!!) and I can't wait to see how I keep progressing -- should probably go prepare a lunch for tomorrow...

Monday, June 20, 2011

Eating Healthier

So today I weighed myself (for the first time in quite a while) and I weighed in at 287. That number really freaks me out because that means I'm only 13 pounds away from weighing 300 pounds...that makes me really scared.

I have however started to eat healthier this week. My mom started taking HCG (those little drops that you put under your tongue) -- she wanted me to try them but I was too hesitant to do it without talking to my doctor first. But I did however look through the little booklet that comes with the drops and at the back was a 1500 calorie diet that you can follow with the drops (which is MUCH healthier than the Very low calorie diet plan of only 500 that the plan encourages). Anyway, I decided that I could totally follow this so this weekend we went shopping and stalked up on some yummy (healthy) food.

Basically the break down of the diet is this:
2 servings of milk a day -- I'm not a milk drinker but I do like yogurt so that's what I've been eating.
3 servings of fruit
3 servings of veggies
5 servings of meat -- this is by far the hardest because I'm just not a big meat eater so to have to actually work it into my diet is kind of a challenge.
3 servings of fat (like salad dressing, peanut butter, etc)
8 servings of starches

It actually works out to be a lot of food in the long run. I'm not going to lie I've had some hunger pains but I think its really just because I'm eating more good for you healthy foods and not fattening weigh you down kind of foods. Walking through Walgreens to get to the photo center was the most difficult part of my day because I had to walk straight past the candy aisle and I really do think that those Kit-Kats were calling my name -- but I did not cave! Although, I do think I'm going to have a small dish of ice cream as a treat tonight so that way I don't get so tempted to go overboard and cheat tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be day 2 and I'm hoping that I can stay strong and focused.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

I Don't Want To!

Why don't I work out regularly like I should?

Because I don't want to!

I don't want to look the way that I do, but I sure as hell don't want to go sweat my ass off at the gym everyday to still look the way that I did when I got there only sweatier and grosser!

I don't want to give up all of the yummy goodness of the foods that contribute to the way that I look! Why can't Twinkies be just as healthy as asparagus? What kind of sick twisted world do we live in??

Honestly I want to just be able to go to sleep tonight and then wake up tomorrow morning and magically look like Jennifer Aniston. But we all know that's not going to happen


I NEED to go to the gym and sweat my ass off so that I won't always have to look the way that I do now (even if I still end up feeling all sweaty and gross).

I NEED to give up those goodies that contribute to my weight (at least until I can learn how to moderate them) and learn to enjoy healthier options (although asparagus will NEVER be enjoyed...sorry asapargus).

And, even though I will never look like Jennifer Aniston at least one day I will look like an even more Amazingly Fabulous version of Little Ole Me!

Because after all sometime we NEED to do the things we don't want to.

Monday, April 18, 2011

I'm Back and Maybe New & Improved(???)

It has been a loooong time since I've logged on and posted something. But I just hadn't been motivated and it seems like life just got in the way (although I'm not quite sure what got in the way of what but you get the point). Over the last two months I have just kind of given up and not really cared and unfortunately my lack of ambition resulted in a 7 pound weight gain (but more on that later). Then this last week I had an epiphany. I was starting to feel really tired, and depressed, and just over all unhappy with my life and I realized that I just felt UNHEALTHY! So I made myself the commitment to get back to the gym.

When I was really starting to think about what goals I want to accomplish this time around (isn't it like 300x the charm or something??) I realized that losing a certain number of pounds just doesn't work for me. I have A LOT of weight to lose (but once again more on that later) and when I see the number on the scale go up (or not change at all) I get really down on myself and that's when I give up. Now that's not to say that I won't weigh myself anymore -- because how else would I track progress??? BUT my ultimate goal is to walk for a half an hour a day for 3 weeks. Once I reach the 3 week mark I'll look at where I'm at and maybe change my goal. 

I really need to start eating healthier too (that's a big part of the 7 pound gain too) but I can't just do an overhaul of my diet and expect it to stick -- I know me IT WON'T STICK! Soooo....I've decided for a 3 week period that I'll change one thing about my diet. My goal for the first 3 weeks is too drink more water. I think you're supposed to drink half of your body weight in water a day (don't quote me on that I haven't looked it up since reading it the first time) -- so for me that would be 143 oz. so I guess I better start drinking up :)

I can honestly say that I did not reach the water goal. So we won't even talk about that.

I did make it to the gym though!! I walked for my alotted half an hour and walked a total of 1 1/2 miles! I'm really proud of myself because it has been a while since I've gone so to walk that far on the track is a big accomplishment I think (although I'm pretty sure my feet hate me). So for today I get a gold star (YAY me!)

OK so this is a really brave moment for me because I never tell anyone what I weigh but today my weight was: 286.5
I like knowing what other people like to listen to at the gym (I'm nosy I can't help it) so I figure I would share my playlist for the day with you!

  1. L.O.V.E. by Ashlee Simpson Gotta dig the old Ashlee Simpson lipsynching days.
  2. Airplanes (Part II) by B.O.B.**SINGING** Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars...
  3. Single Ladies by Beyonce
    You know you love it.
  4. Undo It by Carrie Underwood
    Total chick kick butt song
  5. I Drove All Night by Celine Dion
  6. Ain't No Other Man by Christina Aguilera
    Xtina is AMAZING to work out too
  7. Clumsy by Fergie
  8. Amazing Grace by Josh Wilson
    Only instrumental but great to cool down too.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

January's Fab Five!

So this post will be totally off normal topic (a little bit) and mostly about things that I just really loved this past month. This is also kind of inspired by all of those monthly favorite videos on youtube (seriously you should check them out they are addicting!). Hope you all enjoy I will try to make this part of the routine but we all know how good I am at sticking to a schedule ;)

  1. Chocolate Cheerios
    These are totally a grown up version of Cocoa Puffs complete with chocolate milk when you finish the bowl. I have completely fallen in love with these and not only eat them for breakfast but also for a snack when I'm in desperate need for a chocolate fix.
  2. Ocean Spray Blueberry JuiceI have just recently discovered just how yummy blueberries really are. For the longest time I avoided the little blue fruities just based on their intimidating color (seriously how many blue foods do you see on a daily basis!?) but now that I've discovered them I can't get enough! The Ocean Spray commercials are also a total guilty pleasure for me so when I saw the commercial for blueberry juice I knew that I had to try it and I love it! They also make a diet version which isn't too bad. If you've somehow never seen one of the Ocean Spray commercials I will post a video below in the link section and you should definetly check it out!
  3. Fuzzy SocksI live in the midwest and it gets REALLY cold in the winter and my feet are always the first things to freeze, so needless to say I have acquired a collection of fuzzy socks to keep my tootsies warm and cozy all winter long. Bath & Body Works has really nice ones that are scent infused so you get a dose of relaxation as you go throughout your day and Target has really cute slipper socks for holidays (my faves are the love bug ones for Valentine's Day)
  4. The Shopaholic series by Sophie KinsellaI am a self professed shopaholic so naturally this series appeals to me. There are a total of six books so far and they are AWESOME! They are quick and easy to read and are totally witty and funny too. Sophie Kinsella also has some non series books out too and they are just as good but my set of Shopaholic books have been well loved for a few years now and will be continued to be loved for more ot come.
  5. Vampire DiariesOK so this one is kind of cheating considering that for much of January Vampire Diaries was off air or just showing reruns due to mid-season break, but just last week they came back and I am sooo excited! And I know I am addicted considering that I totally gave up American Idol for the Vampire Diaries (seriously what were they thinking airing on the same night!?) If you've never seen an episode you can get caught up pretty quickly online and the first season is out on DVD. You can also read the books by LJ Smith which inspired the TV series they are pretty good too but a little on the trippy side.


Ocean Spray commercial

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Boo to the Flu!

So I have the flu and it sucks!

Anyway, I haven't worked out all week (or last week) because well I've been sick. Last week work just got so crazy and I got so stressed out that instead of using the healthy steps I know I need to do I just caved and hid out at home to escape it all.

On the plus side I have lost 4 pounds (YAY) which makes me really excited and optimisic about things to come.
I know that this is super short and not very infomative but it's been a little while since I posted so there ya go!

Take Care :)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Ow My Eye!

So I have a stye in my eye..I think.. All yesterday my eye hurt and then when I woke up today it was all puffy and swollen :( The swelling has gone down so I think I should be able to go to work today but I may call my boss just to see what she wants me to do.


I completed my second workout of the week yesterday (shocking everyone including myself). I was all prepared to do the walk 10 minutes, elpitical 10 minutes, and then finish with another 10 minute walk. WELL..that didn't happen. When I arrived at the gym I saw signs up everywhere promoting a half marathon that was taking place at that time.

I DID NOT DO THE HALF MARATHON (just want to make that clear)

Instead I hopped on the elpitcal and completed a 15 minute workout. The marathon was just about done when I was finished and there were some non-marathoners walking the track so I decided to hop on the track. I only walked for about 10 minutes and then headed on home all happy and pretty proud that I completed my two workout goal for the week even if they weren't on Monday and Wednesday like I originally planned.


London Bridge by Fergie
God Save the Foolish Kings by House of Heroes
In My Head by Jason Derulo
Ridin' Solo by Jason Derulo
SexyBack by Justin Timberlake
Blah Blah Blah by Ke$ha

Hope everyone has a happy (and healthy) week :)